Monday, December 13, 2010

The victim

Him made me a fool
---me, belittled to the ground
with no sound, but his song
that am wrong and he's right

but, but i fuckin' wanted it... didn't  i
i mean i laughed with him once,
 thats why
its my fault, thats why 
so yes, its my fault---i mean... wasn't it?

i came with him, i fucked with him
i, i believed in him
and, and, and he didn't put a bullet to my brain
because i (lol) was completely sain and him---

him now in a darken cloud, locked away in a
 misty shroud and i---it was him wasn't it?
the same person who i would lie for and, and,
and who i would fuckin' die for, him now in a
darken cloud where he'll stay
and i... and him--- but, but i deserved it...
didn't i? i mean, i wanted it all the elements was 
there and now its completely clare because
THEY WERE THERE

they heard me say its him'
they saw me came with him
they watched me left with him,
him made me a fool
and, and, and i deserved it
i, i fucked up him, him made me a fool!

me! belittled to the ground with no sound
but his song that am wrong but he's right,
so yes, its my fault!
...well... wasn't it?

(this is not to be taken personal,  was trying to write from a rape victims point of view)


Thursday, December 2, 2010

Bitter sweet love

lovely
bitter
sometimes sweet

tastety dreams
sway at my feet

precious
vivid
mindless song

twilight dwindling
love is strong

pointless
hopeless
saddened wings

forever blown
forever stings

love which held
love which heart
love which always 
falls apart

above
the crakened
 blackened sky

below
the broken heart
it cries

seeps
below the sands
where lovers walk

creeps
above the plans 
where cupids stalk

pounding
ringing
in my head

voices
 screaming
love is dead

fallen petals
on the shore
sinking hopes
forever more

leaving
going
coming back

hating
loving you like that

till now
the hour glass
will keep

this knot is tied
this love is steep
and

when my life
carelessly slow
plead my life
to thee
forever known...